I talk to myself a lot. My brain is in overdrive most of the time and constantly in deep thought. It kind of fuels my writing. But right now, I want to remind all of us, especially myself on a few things so that I can keep going. Why? I really need it. You might not understand and think it is easy to constantly think about certain things on repeat, it’s not. For me and for some people I know. My medium to release the stress caused by my own mind is to just write.
P.S.: I liked the quote thing too, so I’m keeping it. 🙂
P.S.S.: If the mood of the pictures are too jumbled, it’s EXACTLY HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW. Kthxbye.
I know you are going through a lot right now. I know. How? I am you. Duh? So I would definitely know that you are going through a lot and there are so many things in your head that are so jumbled that it doesn’t make sense. This is why I am writing to you.
Seems like you haven’t been sleeping very well when I know you are a true deep sleeper since birth. (You are a no. 1 fan on sleep. Or used to be.) Nor have you been eating regularly as you were supposed to. Yes, you are eating 3 meals a day, but you are not swallowing like a normal person should. You don’t know if it is going in to your nose or your mouth. The following are some reminders to let you know that I am here for you and God is also here for you.
Let’s hope that it gets you going.
“Do not draw strength from others, unless you need to lift something physically heavy.”
You are strong. You are stronger than you think you are. The ability to remain strong when others are down, to look forward even when everything seems backwards and the will to pray and ask for guidance and wisdom. Those traits are definitely of someone who is strong. Everything will be easier said than done. Those things that do not require physical strength can be conquered – spiritual, mental and emotional strength. Obviously, you are emotionally weak but the other aspects will make do for what you lack. Also, stop trying to lift heavy things you can’t. Stop being an idiot and ask for help.
“To be able to love and value others, you need to love and value yourself first
I know, I know. It’s not easy, nothing is easy in this world the first time around. Remember what your counsellor said? She said, “Well, you are halfway there because you have taken the first step.” We heard this quote countless times but forgot about it, haven’t we? I am here for you, I love you and value you. Try to remember the value Jesus had to pay on the cross to show how much He loves you. It breaks my heart still after so many years just thinking about it. Don’t let His sacrifice go to waste because I know you won’t let it go to waste.
“Flowers know they are beautiful, that’s why they appear to be more beautiful
than they actually are.”
Keep in mind that you are one hot mama. Just kidding. You are attractive, beautiful and awesome. (매력덩어리야!) Just because men don’t gaze or drool over you doesn’t mean you aren’t attractive. Outer and inner beauty, you have both. Acceptance is key. Know that you are more beautiful than you perceive. Work on your confidence, girl. God made you in His image.
When you realize to appreciate and accept your own beauty, that is when you will really shine. Like, sidlak-sidlak, kira-kira, 반짝-반짝 shine. It will not work overnight, but I believe we can get through this together. You and I. Yup! Meaning, by yourself. That’s the point, right?
“Don’t settle for less when God has the best planned for you.”
There are things in life that you dream of doing. I know you had and still have your dreams, lots of it. But don’t let reality bring you down. Pick yourself up and go forward again, it’s not the end of the world!!! Not yet anyway! Haha! Do not stop dreaming, hold on to them. You know it makes you feel alive and you deserve to feel that way!
Also, I’m sure the right time will come for the right guy to be with you for the right reasons because you are also his right girl. Right? You deserve the best and not the less. Don’t settle for less. Be yourself. The right door will open at the right time. You know what they say, “God is still writing your love story and it’s going to be a great one when it happens.” (I hope.)
Enjoy the wait while you delight in Him who gives you joy and peace. Learn the values you missed or ignored to acquire when you were younger. Strive to improve yourself while you wait and surely the right door will open up for you. Why am I so sure? Because He promised.
“It’s okay to enjoy your life. Not sometimes, but most times.”
What is life if you can’t enjoy living it? Is it worth spending your days inside your little hole of discouragement and desperation? NO!!! NO!!! NO!!! (Sorry for over reacting. But it’s the truth.)
It’s obvious that you know how to enjoy life. THEN WHY AREN’T YOU DOING IT? You can be a child still, don’t worry about it. Everyone is young at heart and it is okay to goof around, laugh and play. If I recall correctly, you have a favorite quote concerning this:
“We don’t stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.” (George Bernard Shaw)
I know you are doing your best and right now. And your body and mind is floored to the lowest level. Discouragement overtook you and feel hopeless. These reminders aren’t enough for what you are feeling right now but I hope it arranged some of your thoughts. Take one step at a time. It’s okay not to jump forward. As long as those steps are steps forward to your happiness and wellbeing.
Last reminder. If your head is on overdrive and is too jumbled to make sense. Don’t forget. Keep writing.